Christmas Eve

Today is December 24th, Christmas Eve.  And yet, I still have no Christmas holiday spirit.  I sit here listening to music.  No I'm not listening to Christmas music, I'm listening to the Dropkick Murphys.  If I have the spirit of any holiday it would be Saint Patrick's Day.  But I suppose that is simply because of the music.  Whether or not I have the Christmas spirit the holiday will be here tomorrow with all the trappings, the gifts, the music, the presents...I wish I could summon up the spirit like I had when I was a child.  

I don't know why the lack of spirit is bothering me.  I suppose it's because in some ways I have bought into the propaganda that I should have the holiday spirit and completely and fully embrace it.  It's everywhere and it seems like something that can't be escaped.  I wish I knew why I find it so hard to embrace it.  

Well, whether I have the spirit or not, it is soon upon us.  So merry christmas everyone.